Sunday, 25 October 2009
Im damn fc*king annoyed.

Why am i keep dreaming of such weird dreams? How can i stop this! I am if it was the reason that im too tired i will dream then let me have a proper sleep, if not, what was it? I cannot take it anymore, im way tired &stress about it.

I hate dreaming of nightmares of boyf, darling, friends and family. Please let it stop, just stop will it. S-T-O-P!

Boyf called me in the morning and told me that he was unsure that whether he will be finding me not. So i took it that he wasn't coming and followed my family to relative house to visit the Ng's baby. She's uber cute and adorable, very fragile too. Then around 3pm, boyf called and i reject because i scare it'll disturb the baby sleep. And he msg me that he wanted to give me surprises by coming find me, i was of cos very upset about it. But nvm, i think he's angry or what, didnt called me nor anything. Im seriously tired, i know you all will find that im being paranoid or childish. Because im depressed. Depressed of what leh?

Whats the definition of happiness? For my case, i really dont know. I wished for a boyf that when i needed him, he will be by my side. Mayb first few months, yes he will listened to you but after that, it will back to normal. Give me surprises? I doubt so.! Fc*k! I dont know what shit im talking either. Just let me rant out and i'll feel better.

Will my post be wordy?

Mayb, cos this is the only way for me to rant out everything i feel.

I feel that we aren't close like before. Mayb because of attachment, we weren't attached to the same salon, and the closeness had drift. I know i've been saying this. This is the fact. You have more friends. From the pictures, i can sense that we will not be that close anymore. I believe it is not partly your fault nor mine perhaps both parties have their wrong. I dont know. Im dead tired.

Shit you, michelle.! Stop thinking so much, will you? Give me some time to think of positive things bah. (:


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