Thursday, 19 March 2009
Day3 without you, the feeling is still the same, horrible and terrible. I felt that life is too cruel mayb for me. I still cant accept it. Ya, i dont know why either. Mayb thats because my love for him is so true and deep. Putting him down is hard, forgetting him is more difficult. The process is way too hard for me to handle. Accepting other guys is a NOWAY!

Thought of emigrate to other countries, discuss with parents yesterday already. But it isn't easy to do so. Singapore might be the safest country but there's too much memorise left here. I told my mum that i really cannot take it, it's too hard for me to continue. Seeing other couples on the streets, i begin to think of you.

Studies, i hope i can cope well as this year will be the last year. Exam and projects coming soon. Mayb after this course, attachments. i'll see what i can do. To stay in singapore or leave, waiting for time to past as quickly as it can be.

All of the sudden, i feel like going cosmetic surgery for no reason. Mayb has been catching the 10pm channel u show. If you want to be pretty, you can go for surgery. But.. this is only a sudden stuff i want to do it. I hope, i wont.

Now i only can put all my love ღ to my family and femo, or him? i dont know, really dono how life can continue. we shall see.

let things went naturally?


live life fullest signs normal 1:06 pm

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